The things we say and how our words can make an impact on the world.
I have said it before and I’ll say it again. I’m not a writer. I am just not good at it.
What I am though is an entertainer. I do YouTube everyday. Making gaming videos and Vlogging. People criticize me on a daily bases saying things like,”It’s not even a job” or”This will get you nowhere”. But it’s not true. I spend 8+ hours every day making videos and studying how to come up with even better content. I never want to see the quality of my content become less so I must continue to find ways to improve. It’s very hard work trying to motivate yourself to make another video when your audience isn’t that big. It’s like a stand up comic. He pretends to be telling jokes to and auditorium of people when in fact it’s just 4 drunk blokes at the bar (and one of them is passed out).
We YouTubers are a new kind of people. We are not recognized as hard working people though, and that can hurt. I came up with a saying for my YouTube channel. Just Be Awesome. Today, I want to explain why I say that and how my words are going to make a difference in this world.
In 2006 I joined the Army as a very young 17 year old. I was home-schooled my whole life and the only friends I ever really had were the 9 siblings I had. I served for 6 years and did 1 tour to Taji, Iraq in ’09. I went through a lot of stressful times in that 6 year period. Being homeless, seeing military friends die and of course the depression that comes with it. I felt worthless. Alone. I could never seem to talk to people about things I’d seen. I struggled (and still do) with being friends with people. I’m an introvert. I don’t know how to socialize. My whole life has been going from one extreme to the next. I couldn’t seem to find my groove. I started questioning the way I was living my daily life, the way my parents and “friends” told me I was supposed to act and be. I finally came to a realization that I wasn’t happy. I realized it while sitting on my roof with a gun in my hand. I was going to shoot myself. End it all. My whole life I felt that I couldn’t live like others because I was just a failure. Luckily, before I pulled the trigger I thought to myself,”What if I just do what I want to do?” So I started to. I became me. My family hates me for it. Most people around me think I’m a failure. I don’t. My fiance doesn’t. I’m happy. I’m totally nuts and I know it! I love it! I have fun all the time now. People around me will ask me,”What are you even doing?” And I’ll always answer with “I’m just being awesome.”
That’s what I want for everyone. I want everyone to just be awesome. Be you. Not what everyone tells you to be.
So remember, just be awesome